Satisfaction. Interesting word. Iâ€™ll spare you the Mick Jagger reference â€“ but it seems to me that satisfaction is an elusive little bugger. Right along with his friends contentment and peace.
What is it that keeps us from being satisfied? Satisfied with our stuff. Satisfied with our situation. Satisfied with our soul.
Deep within me, there is a longing for MORE. I feel it thoroughly and often. I canâ€™t tell you the amount of days that I feel the desire for more spiraling me downward into frustration and discontentment. And Iâ€™m not just talking about stuffâ€¦although the amount of time I spend saying, â€œsomeday, wouldnâ€™t it be nice to haveâ€¦â€¦.â€ might convince you otherwise.
I want more significance. I want more progress and less waiting. More doors opening and less slamming in my face. More growth. More maturity. More wisdom and discernment.
I want to see God doing more. I want Him to hurry up and get on with it. I want to see my neighbor healed of her cancer. I want my friendâ€™s marriage to stop imploding. I want His Kingdom to come MY way. By the time I get to the end of my list I am worked up and un-satisfied with just about everything.
And so, this morning when I read, â€œPsalm 89:14 â€“ Satisfy us each morning with your unfailing love, so we may sing for joy to the end of our lives,â€ I was struck by Davidâ€™s request to God for satisfaction. And not just satisfaction to get through the day, but a way of living satisfied that will give us a heart of joy for the rest of our lives.
Satisfaction comes when you are convinced of Godâ€™s unfailing love for you. When you trust that He is simultaneously running the show and watching your back. You can be satisfied in the place He has you right now, right here. You can flourish in the season you are in because you know that He is always doing more than we can see.
A friend and I were talking this week about all the things weighing on us. As we continued on, it became very clear to both of us that we were really trying to be Godâ€¦ to everyoneâ€¦ concerning everything. We were being crushed beneath the burden because, wellâ€¦ weâ€™re NOT God.
This morning I am praying for a satisfied spirit. To lay down my need to control every situation. To simply yield myself to the One who is fully in control. The One who will establish His Kingdom in His way and in His timing.
The only thing I need to want MORE of is Him. When I switch my focus to THAT, everything swiftly comes into focus. He is Big. He is loving. He is doing His thing. And I simply get to come along for the ride.
Living in that knowledge, only then will by soul be satisfied.